Tuesday, November 4, 2008

GO OBAMA!

so whats up karipap. its not 3.44am on a very unsleepable tuesday morning. 4 Nov - the day hopefully america gets her first black president. GO OBAMA!

updates updates, four ur info, i am a very forgetful person and the main reason for this blog is for me to keep in track of what happened in my life and for me to reflect and ponder on things that have happened or is about to happen. So if this bores you, get out.

i recently turned 27 and not liking it one bit. Feel that i am getting old and not going anywhere. Not achieving the goals i have set (due to being ill disciplined, unmotivated and not giving a crap) and not becoming the person i want to be.

I REPEAT... the person I WANT to be.

in the first place, do i know what i want? Do i know what i desire and what i hope the outcome would be. I perhaps only have a very hazy vision of it, not clear and concise yet, but hope it will be in the future.

Sometime, i sit down and ponder, if the mistakes i have done in my life have made me a better person, or it has just made me complacent. I definitely have become a stronger person internally, i can take criticisms better, hold my head up high in times it needs to be and be aggressive, not at the right time at times.

sometimes, i come across to people as being rude, brash, irresponsible, cold, unreliable, disorganised etc etc. But i guess i just dont give a rats ass about it anymore. It does use to affect me especially if it came from people who are dear to me and from people whom i expect to be ever ready in times of need, but dear readers, dunt be fooled. they are around all the time but believe me, don't expect too much.

you live for certain people in your life and u must ascertain their status. You cant live for everyone and everything and must determine who are important and who arent. Those who are not worthy or in terms of social or familial connections are of utterly little or no use to your life, exercise discretion and concentrate your love, attention and time to those who REALLY mean to you.

  


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